I’ve been meaning to write you this entry since the day I first laid eyes on you. But being a first time mom and having new responsibilities can be a lot to take so I had to make plenty of adjustments.
Baby I never thought I’d feel the way I felt the first time I heard you cry, saw your face and held you in my arms. Everytime I think about the day of your birth, the day that it finally sinked into me that I am really a mom now, would always make me teary eyed. Not sure if hormones has to do with this though. Baby you were so small, so fragile and I realize that I was scared that I might not be able to take care of you very well that I might not be enough but I was also overflowing with so much love that I swore to myself that I would do anything for you, that I have to be brave from now on. You have changed me baby. I was always terrified of babies to be honest love. I was afraid of their scream, of their being so delicate, of their poop… But love the first night you came home with us I forgot all about my fears. I couldn’t stop looking at you and no matter how exhausted I was I could just stay up all night and stare at you and imagine you growing up with a better future. Oh how i dream you grow up to be good person and free to do whatever your heart’s desire. I just couldn’t believe that you came from me and how beautiful you are.
Now 2 weeks have passed you’ve grown bigger really fast. I can’t help but feel proud and at the same time sad because I can finally relate to what every parent keeps saying to their child “don’t grow up too fast.”. 2 weeks seems to gone by like a blink of an eye. How you’ve made time speed by. I love you Euan Miguel.