This post is long overdue! I really wanted to write so not to forget more details. I hope I didn’t forget much. It’s been 3 months since I’ve given birth to our Euell.
It was December 19 when I still decided to come to work. Already at 39 weeks and 2 days! Being new to the company I wanted to save all the leaves so I could spend more time with my baby. I was really stupid coming in to work that late of my pregnancy. I should have been resting at home. I feel like I still have so much time. I even wanted to buy Christmas gifts at that time for our family and friends. If I was not busy with work stuff at that time I would have gone to the mall that day. I was planning to go to the mall at 7pm for a last minute shopping when I needed to finish a task and decided to shop the next day.
It was 830 pm when my husband message me asking what time will he be fetching me. I told him I can come out at 9pm already. At that time he already was preparing to come to our office as I was cleaning my area too when suddenly I felt some water coming out between my legs. I thought it was urine and I was even thinking of telling my office mate, Ana, that I had an accident. So when I was about to tell her I was smiling just to cover my embarrassment when I started to notice that there was so much water coming out that it possibly couldn’t be pee. And I started to panic and then Ana started to notice the water. We both didn’t know what to do. I remember her calling our emergency hotline. And then more colleagues where coming to my area to check what’s happening. I had no time to feel embarrass. I was starting to feel scared as water would not stop even if I try to hold it or even press my legs together. I noticed my stomach getting smaller. I couldn’t even remember how I was able to call my husband. I was just so scared i thought I was going to give birth in our office! But I didn’t feel any pain at that time. And so I was just confuse and scared. So many people are now in my area. Then finally I saw the nurse I started to feel a bit calm. I heard that they were calling the ambulance and so they’ve put me on a wheel chair. My husband’s also on his way. When were already at the lobby the guards from our company where all scattered trying to get a taxi as the ambulance is taking so much time to get to us. Everyone seems to be running and on their walkie talkies and i started to panic again because I just realize it’s december and the traffic at this time is just so bad. I don’t know how long we’ve waited but some good samaritan was about to give me a ride to the hospital when I saw my husband. I didn’t want to go to The Medical City because I know we don’t have the budget to give birth there but choice do we have? Traffic is bad and I was afraid my baby will not be able to breath if I lose my water. Up to the point where I was sitting in our car water has not stopped coming out.
Finally at The Medical City. They checked me and the baby. Euell’s heart beat is still okay and I was just 2cm at that time and my belly’s still pretty high. It looks like I was not going to give birth any time soon. We still have time to move to another hospital. I would have opted to go to the hospital where we gave birth to Euan. Then I saw my underwear. I was curious as to why there some dark green slime and then I ask the doctor what it was. Then when she saw it she told me that the baby has already pooped and I have to go through emergency CS. At that time I really didn’t believe what I was hearing. I wanted to have time to process the information but the doctor was very persistent that we don’t waste any more time at it is very second we waste couldn’t potentially endanger the life of our baby. We asked if we still have time to move to another hospital but the doctor said it would be too late already if should we push through that. When we asked how much will it cost us at that time I really didn’t know what to do anymore. The price ranges was 150k – 200k+ depending on the condition of the baby. At that time I know we don’t have a choice. Traffic on that area is the worst. I was looking at our baby’s heart beat and I just couldn’t bare to see it dropped and so we decided to go through it even without knowing yet how will be able to pay the bill.
I started to cry when I realize there is no longer going back after I’ve signed so much papers. Everything happened so fast. They were really in a hurry my brain couldn’t even cope up with all the information going through my head at that time. It was too much that I just cried and cried. My husband was not allowed to be there with me too. I’ve never felt so alone and scared. I couldn’t remember much. All I wanted at that time is to for it to be over. I keep repeating in my head “please let it be over now”. I remember I was shaking uncontrollably not sure if it was because of the aircon or I was just really scared. The anesthesiologist came in and explained everything but I couldn’t understand anything. I didn’t feel any labor pain at that time and so when he injected the anesthesia on my spine that was the only time that I really did feel pain. And then i couldn’t move the lower part of my body. I started to cry again and then heard the doctor telling me to close my eyes. Every time I would feel someone moving me so hard I would try to open my eyes thinking that no one is looking and then I would hear a voice telling me to close my eyes. It felt like forever and then finally I heard a very loud cry. That cry comforted me and I forgot how scared I was and I didn’t feel alone anymore. I finally saw him. They placed him on my chest and had him latch on me immediately. I wanted to hold him. I forgot about everything and saw only him. We were together till we got in our room. We were already roomed in together. I’m just so happy that nothing bad happened to him. He’s okay. That’s all that I really wanted. The bill of course was expensive! But I just kept thinking about our baby Euell. That he is ok. Financially we are drained this year and our debt is piling up but I know that we will get through this. This too shall pass. Every time I’d think of our problem I would just have to look at our two boys and I start feeling hopeful and strong again.