3 + 1 = 4

Everytime I start an entry on this blog it always starts with something like explaining myself for the long absence. I feel like I shouldn’t be having this blog anymore as I really don’t know how to maintain it. There are plenty of working moms like me who can still blog. I don’t know how they do it. I guess I could do it it’s just I’ve been going through a lot of changes all at once eversince I became a mom. I’m a mess! Anyway. I’m back. While I’ve been gone a lot has happened. I lost my job and then we found out we are expecting a second baby. To be honest I was not ready at all. Without a job and then having to pay 2 mortgages the news wasn’t really that exciting. I was terrified. My husband as a happy go lucky person that he is was ecstatic while I was still in the process of really trying to figure out what we will do when I no longer have a job. I spent the whole May and June job hunting. Then I had to experience morning sickness and I was required 3 weeks of bed rest. I had to cancel job interviews because I was at risk of having a miscarriage. So I was left with 3 weeks to find a job before I spend my last day with my company. I had 8 interviews from different companies. All rejected me except for one. It was during my last day that I received a text from one of the 8 companies that i have an offer. All the worries about how we will survive the months to come have finally disappeared still I don’t think during those times it has really sinked in that soon we will be 4. It wasn’t until we had our CAS scan that I really able to finally able to realize that we will be having another baby.

As for my new company I really liked it there. They have a mother’s lounge and a gym. That made me really happy despite missing my old one. The office is far most of the time we would travel 2-3 hours. The first few weeks in my new company was difficult as I was not used to the long hours away from Euan. In my old company I would come in late so I could still spend time with Euan in the morning and I can also go home early and continue working from home. In the evening I could still put Euan to bed. It was part of the reason that I really was sad to have lost the job because it gave me enough time to be with my son. With this new company even though we have flexi hours we still need to finish 9 hours a day. What we would do now is come to work late so in the morning we can still spend time with Euan when he wakes up. In the evening though Euan is already asleep. Yaya would say that he tries to wait for us. He would face the door until he would fell asleep waiting for us to arrive. That just breaks my heart. Thinking about him waiting and to be disappointed really makes me a lot more guilty. Also most mornings he would cry wanting to go with us. I hate having to say goodbye to him. If only I could just be a housewife for a while and be the one to take care of him. But I know that would be impossible for now. So most days I’d be crying in our rest room because the guilt is just too much to bare. I always find myself guilty for choosing to have a career. But I just have to remind myself no matter how hard it is that I am doing this for him and now for our new addition. All the more now I need to work hard. For their future.

Also I didn’t mention we also already have the gender revealed. We did this like we did with Euan. We found out together with my husband’s family. It was very memorable. We bought this baby frog suite that would either indicate we have a boy or a girl. We let the sales lady take care of wrapping frog suite as we have no idea yet about the gender. We chose wonder woman for girl and super man for boy. When we opened tha gift we found a super man frog suite. Everyone was expecting a girl including me and my husband. I’m still happy though. I am excited now to see him. He looks a lot like his brother but he’s a lot active. He moves a lot compared to when Euan was the occupant of my womb. We still have not decided what to call him.

Soon we’ll be preparing again and really looking forward to it. I wish I could really take care of this blog. I’ll try as much as I can.


A Year Older

I just celebrated my birthday yesterday. Didn’t have anything big planned out. I wanted to celebrate my birthday with just the family. And I just even want to sleep uninterrupted. I have happened to be neighbors with who i share the same birthday and I’m amazed at how she could still manage to plan a party with her having two hyper active toddler and still even managed to look great. Didn’t really plan on going anywhere but they invited us over for snacks in the afternoon. It felt awkward because I’ve not prepared anything at all and every time there’s someone celebrating birthday in our village there is always gathering. Everyone seem to know I also have a birthday and yet I was there in clothes I wore while i was cleaning the house. Didn’t plan on staying long just sent a cake but they insisted. I was tired after all the things I did in the morning in our front yard. But I immediately forgot how embarrassed I am when I saw little E enjoying himself with the other kids. He don’t get to go out much and have playmates and so seeing him having so much fun makes me stop worrying about myself. I thought I already have a hyperactive one but compared to my new friend’s kids little E is still described as well behave.

I don’t know but for me I preferred spending my birthday the way I did. In the morning I planted our delivered Eugenias and frog grass and transplanted our pechays. Cleaned the house and then went out to have lunch with the family. Husband treated me with a whole body massage. If it were not for the invitation I would have spent the whole afternoon sleeping. I know it seem ordinary but not having to cook, having someone pamper me, getting sleep and read a book seem to be the greatest gift I could ever receive. I hope I didn’t give our neighbor an impression that I am distant and cold. It’s in our culture to be very close with the neighbors. It is called pakikisama here. I love that people can plan events i have nothing against that at all. For me though choosing between a party and relaxing I’d prefer the latter. I hope that isn’t really bad. Anyway maybe next year when little E is bigger I’d be good in planning parties. We’ll just see. Maybe I’d be able to pull it off too.

Hope to update you with more pictures of our vegetable garden and new plants to be delivered this weekend. I’ll do my best. till next time.


My collection of succulents and arranged them myself. 🙂



Eugenias and frog grass delivered a day before my birthday. 


Planted our frog grass and the Eugenias. Can’t wait for them to grow bigger.


It doesn’t look much for now. This is what our driveway looks like for now.



Surprise gift from my husband. A cake, harry potter book and a letter. 🙂


Little loving my cake. That was his breakfast.


Soon as we got home from lunch went to the fridge and got himself a slice of cake. 

I’m Still Here

I’ve not visited this blog for a while. Not that I really don’t have time. I could squeeze time to write but the past months had been depressing I don’t want to fill my blog with nothing but rants. Got trouble at work because of my being incapable to balance work  and life. I didn’t pursue day care because mama found a relative who would take care of my son but turned out that I was just being used to fill her months of no work. As soon as her husband flew to Manila and an opportunity to work she orchestrated this alibi that was so good that it almost ruined a relation with a friend. She didn’t really take care of little E. The house is a mess because she’s lazy. Always on the phone or fixing her hair. I was in so much stress. She didn’t really want to work as a helper or nanny.

The house has a lot of problems that we constantly  have to report. There are people coming and in out of our house only to create new problem. There are still problems but this month i decided to take a break because the past weeks I’ve been having the worst migraine attack. I’m constantly absent because I can’t work from home because I don’t have internet yet. My boss hates me. I hate me. I honestly feel like I’m drowning. From all the responsibilities and the failures that I have to consonantly juggle. This month I choose not to dwell much on it anymore. We have a new helper. She’s ok. I hope she continues to be. I try not to be attached because I tend to expect and expectations would only lead to disappointment. I don’t want to go through that again.

The house well we are fixing the problems one step at a time. I try not to be bothered by the things that is still can be fixed and to the things that is beyond our control I try to convince my brain to forget or ignore. I have to be patient.

To fix stress away I try to still find time for myself when Little E is sleeping. I read a book at night. In the morning while little E is still sleeping I go gardening. Our front yard is improving a lot. We are now growing vegetables. It’s fun to see the seeds you sow are now grown plants of even blooming flowers. So for now this is our house. Still need to buy cabinets for kitchen and bedrooms. And so much more. All the more I wanted to continue working. Not necessarily of the material things but because I want a comfortable life for our family. The past weeks feeling really like I’m no good as mom and a career woman I have been thinking about quitting my job even though really it is not an option. But having goals for the family drives me to hold my chin up and just go on. So yes I’m still here.


New Chapter

Hello! Hello! I’m just going to be quick just to update this blog that we’ve already moved. It’s been two weeks already and it had been a hell of a ride. I’m so exhausted and still a lot is needed to be done. Done with the grills and the tiles. We still don’t have cabinets and our front and backyard is still a mess. It will probably take a lot of time and money before we finally make our house into the one we’ve always visualized. Right now since we’ve almost exhaust our savings we are taking a break from the spending and just concentrate on DIYing. So for now these are just what our looks like. Hopefully I could still have the time to DIY. Will probably be posting pictures. For now the house is still a mess. So more updates to come.

Project Change-Is-Coming

Hello! I hope you are having a wonderful Monday. 🙂 I got some big news. We finally got a car! We got it within a week after we applied for the bank loan. The approval was so quick that we didn’t have a chance to think about the unit that was offered to us. Although we were set to really buy a car it never really occurred to us that we’d be buying before we move to our house. Everything happened so fast. It was a good deal for a situation like ours. I have to be honest I had sleepless nights and even experience hyperventilating. I got nervous because this is another huge responsibility and an expensive one but I know that we need this especially now that we have a child. I am not sure how long our yaya is going to be with us ever since she told me last week that she’s planning on going to college again but if should she decides to leave I think we’ll take a break in hiring another yaya and consider day care instead. And should that happen we will be needing to commute with little E everyday. I’ve had several bad experience in commuting in public transport with little E. Number 1 is breastfeeding him is difficult for both he and I. Number 2 not everyone has patience or are considerate in a child having tantrums. Little E don’t like heavy traffic so whenever the car stops he would cry and fuzz around. You’ll get a hate stare from your fellow passenger as if they are trying to tell you to calm you child which is really impossible to do. Number 3 is it really is exhausting having to wait in line in van terminal with a child and bag full of grocery and it is even harder when it is raining. We could choose not bring little E with us during grocery but we don’t really have a choice but to bring him with us since our yaya has been frequently having her day off. Number 4 should there be an emergency in our new house we’d be in a lot of trouble since there’s a little shuttle available in our area and you have to wait around 30 mins for it to arrive. So finally getting the car had already solved a lot of our problem although it would require us to be more conscious with our expenses now that we are paying two mortgages. So yeah I have to find ways to save more.

Another news is we’re done applying for electricity and water. Now we have grills installed in our house not that I am fan of grills but I find it a necessity these days. I wouldn’t be able to  sleep well that any bad person could just come into our home. We could never be too confident with the village security guard. Things you see in the news is just too scary and when you have child it’s their safety that you have to prioritize. So never mind if I really don’t like it. Next project would be the tiles. Already our saving’s been drained off. Hopefully there’d be enough money left for new furniture and cabinets. This is really hard!  More update in days to come. 🙂



Hello everyone. 🙂 yes I know I’ve been gone again for a long time. Nothing much really has been going on with us and I’ve been rather busy too. What’s with the title? Not that really is something new. I get about 4-6 hrs of sleep everyday. Just today I don’t think I had ever slept at all. A lot of things have been running in my head. I thought I would really be happy about a recent event that have happened but then I realize what an amount of work and sacrifice is there a to be done. So yes we already, finally got an authority to move to our house and I should be really excited but going there on our own proved it to be difficult to travel because there’s not much option for commute. They have a few shuttle that go round lancaster city but there’s not much of it going around. If traveling will be an issue we will be left with no choice but to really buy a car. I’m terrified of owning a car because big E and I are not very fond of the traffic here in Manila and the very upsetting news on many irresponsible drivers and not to mention those road rages. I just never ever want to get myself into that kind of stress. Being a commuter I’m fine with dealing with the stress by sleeping it off or reading a book. But if we really are to move to Cavite and that would mean sacrificing too much time away from our little E then I couldn’t bare it. 😦 I can’t be separated from little E for too long. It already is a torture that I have to be away from him 9-10 hrs. I just can’t spend any more time longer than that. I already feel guilty for still having a job instead of taking care of him myself but I know I’d feel a lot worse if I don’t help my husband. He’d probably end up finding a job overseas and that’s the last thing I wanted for us to happen, to be separated. Little E loves his papa so much. Anyway so the car is on our priority right now. I don’t know how we are going to manage with furniture if the budget goes mostly on the car. We also have several things that need to be done before we move like grills and cabinets. So many things on my list right now and I just don’t know how and which one to prioritize. I’m also worried for big E because he works in Ortigas. That’s very far from Cavite and the traffic there is so much worse too. All these thoughts kept me awake. I try to rearrange our to-do things but every time I try to put something on top of the list something else suffers. Maybe I just overthink too much. I wish I get better sleep tonight. I can’t help but think if we ever made the right decision. Yes we dreamed of having our own house but if it’s this too much work, if it means spending too much time away from our little E is it all worth it? I really am scared that we’ll regret what we have done.


My Little Accident

Hi everyone! I’ve been really having second thought on sharing this but felt that this will also serve to warn anyone to be careful. I feel really embarrassed about what happened. I may be one of those unlucky person to ever be injured on a inflatable giant slide. I broke 3 bones on my foot which resulted to making me stay at home for 4 weeks! When the doctor told me that it would be better if i rest at home that long it made my heart sank because i don’t think I can afford to leave work that long especially that I haven’t been performing well ever since i became a mom. I had a lot of task already behind and not working I’m afraid of losing my job. The doctor told me if I really needed to work I have to use crutches but oh goodness was it hard to use them. Had to use it for a while and already I had blisters on both my hands and my arms and neck and back is already sore. A few meters of walking in it and I’m already covered in sweat and I rarely sweat. So how did it happen? Well it was happy day for us because decided to celebrate father’s day in advance and so we took little E to kidzoona. We had the day all planned out. Little E was very excited and sooooo happy playing. It was really fun watching him. And then we saw this giant slide and everyone going in it had a huge smile on their faces. Little E wanted to try it but I was reluctant to let him because my husband is gone for a little while to buy something. But little E really wanted to go as he sees many kids going and so despite the voices telling me to wait for my husband we went up the ladder and as I was holding little E I looked down and realize how scared I was and thought of it as a bad idea. I wanted to go back to the ladder but I don’t know how I could carry little E on that ladder. I looked at other parents with them carrying their kids as they slide it looked so easy and fun for them. So I closed my eyes and slide and get over it. I was so busy being scared that i didn’t realize that my left leg got under by behind. As we were sliding down I was sitting with my left foot and the friction between my foot gave me the injury. I couldn’t walk because it was too painful to even touch my foot. Then this little kid from the slide landed on my foot! I had to scream. Little E wanted to go back to the slide and I had to hold him while he fights me. He was crying but I have to hold him because no one else is going to look after him. I waited for my husband for what felt like forever. Then he finally he was there and couldn’t believe I really injured myself. We really thought that it was just a sprain. So we waited for the pain to go away. I just sat at the corner while big E and little E were playing but I felt that the pain was just too much and so we had to call for help. The people at kidzoona to my disappointment didn’t really know how to attend to my injury. They just gave me ice to put on my foot. Then I had to tell them I needed to go to the clinic. At the clinic I was given pain reliever and then still the ice on my foot. They were telling me that it would go away that they’ve had a lot of cases like that. I just needed to put ice and some ointment and I’ll be fine. But I’ve sprained my foot before and it was not this painful at all. I hate going to the hospital and I would very much just agree to what they say that I just need to sleep on it but it was just too painful. I had to tell them I needed to be sent to the hospital because I was not feeling better. I could see the face of manager a bit disappointed because he really had to go with me because that’s part of their process. I didn’t even want him to go with us but it is part of his job. Little E already bored and I wish I listened to the voice in my head. I was so disappointed with myself that I’d have to ruin our day. I was then wheeled to the emergency room had my xray and then we found out I had fractured bones. It came as a shock to me because I’ve never been injured before. If this were in my younger days where I didn’t have any responsibility I would have probably rejoiced knowing I have 4 weeks to stay home. I would read books and watch all the movies I’ve missed. But now that I am a mom i don’t know how we are going to manage at home and yes work. I never like bothering anyone or be a burden. I really am not comfortable asking for help. I feel bad for big E. He had to cook, take care of little E after work, do the grocery, and a lot more. It was even harder that I couldn’t play with little E. 😦 Good thing also that I was allowed to work from home. I was able to borrow a laptop. Although I’d still prefer to work with the office because of the crappy internet here at home it is still better than not being able to do my task. 3 weeks have passed and I just can’t wait to be freed from my cast. I really wanted to be useful again.


So there that’s what happened. I don’t know how often this happen to anyone but I really feel bad. I wasted 4 weeks. Although it is nice to be home and have more time with little E i still didn’t feel ok having big E do everything. I’m gonna make it up to him.

Summer Getaway 2016: Activities with a Toddler

Another downtime. My server is still inaccessible and thus I am stuck. Well that’s a good thing I guess so I could finally update this blog. 🙂

We didn’t have much activities since we have a toddler. Everything we had to do must be fun and of course safe for our little E. The only moment little E really hated was breakfast time. The location of the dining area in Ferra Hotel is beside their lap pool. Little E is always distracted and would really try to climb out of his high chair. He would only stop fussing when we let him go to the pool. But of course he still is not dressed for swimming so we let his tiny feet feel the water. Sometimes he would want to really jump. We didn’t get to enjoy much of our breakfast. 😦 Reviews had been raving about their beef tapa but I didn’t get the chance to indulge in it. If only we could only just eat breakfast in our room. But then it really was fun seeing little E having fun.

So the first thing we did when we got to Boracay was just enjoy our room. I embraced the fresh sheets took mental photos of the room wishing that we could do that with our own someday. Then the boys went right on to watching TV. They were already glued to the TV while I arranged our clothes and then decided to order some snacks. On my previous post I shared how yummy their food is. I ordered carbonara and wow it is the best I have ever tasted so far. We decided to go out at 4 in the afternoon thinking that it wouldn’t be that hot anymore. Please don’t be mad at me but I decided not to buy sun screen because I was scared on putting something on little E. I wasn’t sure which sun screen were safe to use for a 1 yr old. So we really made sure to only go out early in the morning then late in the afternoon. But to our surprise 4pm was still very hot. We were running by the beach looking for a shade because little E was already feeling uncomfortable. I forgot to bring his water! and he began to feel thirsty good thing i brought my nursing cover. It took a while for him to really warm up to the sand. He first didn’t like feeling of the sand on his feet. For a while he just wanted to be carried. But then as the heat was calming down little E no longer protested when we set him down the sand. We bought him this swim float and so we finally made him try floating on the shallow part of the beach. We ended up staying at Willy’s Rock after all the running we did finding shade. Little E really enjoyed the water. The sun is setting so we decided to go back to the hotel so we could change before dinner but little E keeps pulling is floater and tries to run back to the water. Little E also enjoyed being around kids his age. You’d think they really understand each other because they would be gesturing like they are talking. But when you listen you’d only hear gibberish talk. I was a lot more excited I guess than little E. Seeing him just having fun was such a delight to witness.


Going back to the hotel we were excited to go to the roof top for dinner but it seem little E was already tired from all the running and swimming he did at the beach. He was starting to fuss when he bathe him and then change him to fresh clothes. But then he again started to feel happy when we got on the elevator upon seeing his reflection. He got this fascination with mirror. It took a while for our order to arrive and so little E got bored on his high chair and just wanted to run all over the place. But when our food arrived little E finally for first time sat still. He loved the chicken tinola so much! It was the first time I ever saw him consumed that much. Their food is that really good that even my very picky eater finally behaved himself just so we could give him more. That night little E sleep very well and I have slept well too.

The next day we decided to spend the whole day by the beach. We looked for a place we could stay with shade and have the beach for our view. We were looking for beach benches with umbrellas so we could stay till noon and then we found Red Coconut. Staying there is not for free though. To be able to stay there since there’s two us we need to order something that would amount to 600 pesos. So we ordered drinks and then promised to have lunch there although I really want to eat at the hotel again. Big E bought sand toys for little E and he really enjoyed it! We also went swimming while it was still not that hot. It was relaxing time by the beach because little E was just playing with his new toys. We didn’t have to chase after him. I enjoyed looking at the beach and then of course little E. He’s so cute with his babiators sun glasses that big E bought for him. We decided to order lunch because little E started to look sleepy. He must be really tired because he slept through lunch. Well he wouldn’t have enjoyed lunch because honestly I didn’t like their food. I was disappointed because what we ordered is a lot more expensive than the ones in the hotel but it was not that even that good. Not to brag but I can cook better. 😦 We went back to the Hotel right away because the sun is starting to really hurt our skin even under the umbrella.

So we spent some time in our room before we head again to the beach this time we wanted to go to Puka beach. During our first visit in Boracay before we had little E we were not able to go there because of bad weather. I have been really looking forward to visit this beach and I wouldn’t want to miss it this time. The hotel arranged our transportation which was really great for them. At 4pm the tricycle was already waiting for us. We paid 150 pesos. It was far that little E fell asleep again and when we got to Puka Beach it was still a bit hot so again we decided to find benches with umbrella so little E could continue sleeping comfortably. My goodness was it pricey. They’d tell you that it is free to stay you just have to order their drink. The cheapest on their menu is buko juice which is worth 250 pesos! I started to complain and was about to just check the other benches when the guy who gave us the menu said he would give it 150 pesos for us. I was already feeling bad for little E so we agreed to the price. When little E woke up we immediately started swimming as we only got around an hour before the sun sets. Little E love the sand there. It’s much finer.

We got back to the hotel and took a swim on their lap pool. Little E loved it so much that we almost couldn’t get out anymore. But I was already getting hungry and even though he was still begging for more big E had to finally carry him while he is still crying. 😦 And so I just wanted to have dinner at Ruf’s resto again and it did not disappoint. I could eat there everyday! Since little E is still fully charged from sleeping at Puka beach we decided to let him experience Boracay Night life. He enjoyed the fire dance.

The next day we are set to leave for Boracay. 😦 And so we decided to spend the rest of the day eating. With the help of google we searched for must try places. We can only accommodate two place with our remaining time so we chose Spice Bird and Boracay Toilet. I love what I ordered in Spice Bird. The sauce is my favorite. Big E was disappointed with what he ordered. It was a bit pricey too. Next is the Boracay Toilet. I think most people go there for the experience. They will serve your food their toilet themed dishes. The whole place  looked fun. Good for picture taking. The food however was just ok. We ordered halo-halo because we are still full. That was last place we visited before we got back to our Hotel for our service to pick us up.

Our vacation was short but fun. It really was memorable to us as a family. I don’t know when will ever get a chance to have a vacation like this especially soon we will be moving to our house. Don’t know if we’ll have another chance to splurge like this. Boracay sure is a nice place for family vacation but sure is expensive. I’m just happy that little E gets to experience the beach with us. That is my favorite part of our vacation just to see little E be fascinated with so many things and just be happy.

Summer Getaway 2016: Ferra Hotel Boracay

Another downtime. Server’s down and I have not been granted access to files in our repositories so here I am stuck doing nothing. Everyone is gone for our company summer outing but I have to stay because I couldn’t leave my son overnight. Since I have all this time and no one’s going to help me because I’m alone right now please allow me to share about our family outing last week in Boracay. 🙂 It was so memorable because this is the first time little E will experience the sea and sand. Seeing him be amazed by all the new things he discovers makes me also appreciate and see  things in a new light. It is also like looking at things for the firs time myself.

This will not be the first time we are traveling with little E and so I thought I’d be already prepared but no there are still a lot we forget but at least we’ve improved. We booked our plane ticket last year on a promo so we had a lot of time to at least save up and to look for places and activities to do when traveling with a toddler. I wanted to book a hotel that is clean because we have a toddler and then I read about this new place near Bulabog beach. The reviews were good and they were awarded traveler’s choice for 2015. The pictures from travelers are usually the ones I really look at and sure enough the place is amazing. I wanted to book their loft room but it was beyond our price range so we just booked their deluxe queen room. The room already included free buffet breakfast. One thing also that most of the reviewers rave about is their food. The price is just right and all the food we ordered there is indeed delicious. You’ll love that at dinner you get to eat on their bar at the roof top. Wonderful ambiance. You’ll also love their staff. Super friendly and very accommodating. The whole time we were there we feel really welcomed.

So below are the pictures we had on Ferra Hotel.

Our room for 3 days and 2 nights. 🙂 Love their sheets! The room is very clean and love the furniture.

The  hotel also has this lap pool located outside their dining area. Euan enjoyed swimming here. The only problem is he never wants to eat his breakfast because he just wants to take a swim.

Our most favorite part of our stay in Ferra Hotel is their food! every food that we ordered were all very good even the food they serve for breakfast. We were not able to include big E’s favorite their tinolang manok and sinuglaw. A must try.


Overall I’d definitely go back to Ferra Hotel and I highly recommend it to travelers with kids. 🙂 This post is quite long. So more of our summer vacation next time I get a chance to blog.


Hello everyone. I’m just going to update you a little about what happened from where I’ve left off and then about my breastfeeding journey. I have just moved to another team which really made it even more hard for me to have time to update this blog good thing that we are having a blocker issue right now so we are stuck and might as well give this blog a quick update. So we also had our second inspection two weeks ago and most of the major problems are already resolved. There are still minor problems like tile and wall cracks that we demanded to be addressed. So we are now waiting for our probably last inspection and then unit acceptance but moving won’t happen very soon because we still need to do home improvement to do. I’m not sure if our current savings would be able to cover everything but definitely it will take another time. We also have a plan on buying a car but we never  expected we’d consider this any time soon after our house acceptance but visiting our house was difficult especially because there’s no established transport system yet  around our village. I don’t know how we will manage if traveling would eat most of our time. I wanted for us to be able to really spend a lot of time with little E. I’ve always been guilty about leaving little E for work. I hope we will be able to accomplish home improvement, moving and then buying a car before this year ends. Seems a lot and huge project.

With all this planning and sacrifices and being a mom I’m just always exhausted. It’s harder not to have relatives you can ask for help in looking after the baby. Though we have a nanny we are very hands on in taking care of little E. I always hurry in going home so I could still play with little E in our village park. Feed him myself. Give him bath. Read him stories and put him to sleep. I still want to do all that for him and if I miss one task because I have to extend work hours I’d be really guilty. On weekends we also make sure our nanny gets her day off so that she could have enough rest because looking after a hyper toddler the whole day is no easy task. You see I don’t rest much on weekends either. Little E still breastfeed at night so most of the time I’d still wake up 3-4 times. He’s still not weaning. Despite being tired and everything I still make sure to give myself time to read. So at night right after little E sleeps I read at least 5 pages but sometimes I’m too exhausted I’d fall asleep with little E. I long for a 8 hours uninterrupted sleep. Just that. But I know that’s not going to happen any time soon yet. I always tell myself that this too shall pass and every sacrifice is worth it. Anything for my little E. So even though at many instances I’d be in auto pilot mode and I feel like a zombie and just mess up a lot by being so forgetful I just laugh it out. It will make a good story for little E when he grows up.

Little E is now super hyper. He likes to run a lot when he’s at the mall. He likes to feed himself. He can say CA for cars, bye, and di for no. He sits on our sofa by himself when he wishes to watch his favorite kiddie show. He loves baths. He knows how to throw tantrums now when he don’t get what he wants. He is even more clingy which makes it even harder to leave for work when he wakes up before I could walk out the door. He loves looking at his own reflection. He cries when he sees his pedia. He can is very shy. I try to remember more but I just received an email of a new task and now I’m blank. Leaving now hope I can really update more. Wish us luck on our projects. Till next post!